Waiting can be torturous!
Posted by mojovator on April 17, 2008
Are you a patient person? I’m not. Not by nature anyway. I can be completely patient but it is usually a focused effort, a conscious thing. As soon as I typed that last sentence I realized there are qualifiers to that statement. Inexplicably, I can be incredibly patient and even surprise myself! But when it comes to something that is going to be positive-ly life changing for me, I vacillate back and forth (kinda like someone who has only two speeds–hysteria or lethargy–my Dad used to say).
(5 1/2 hrs have passed)
Well, I suddenly found myself feeling very down after I got home from work. Couldn’t tell ya why but I figured I’d run through the “HALT” (hungry, angry, lonely, tired) checklist. I was hungry, lonely and tired. First things first. Nourishment. I drove myself to the diner and on the way there left a couple peeps messages. And while there I sent a few txts and got a few back. Next thing I knew, a few tears leapt out of my weary little eyeballs and ran down my cheeks. I realized, as I sat there alone, how sad I was that I’ll be celebrating my Mom’s 70th birthday without my Dad. It just hit me like a ton of bricks. And how sad my Mom must be without him. I guess sitting there eating alone triggered these thoughts. Usually, I’m fine dashing out on my own when my better half isn’t around. But tonight was different.
After a quick bite a met up with a bunch of friends that share a common goal and we hung together for an hour. I knew that would make me feel better (I planned that before I even pulled out of the driveway for the diner). I had remedied hungry and lonely.
I’m finding writing the past few days has been a great outlet.
Now I’m just tired and the only solution I know of is to go to bed. So away I go. G’night y’all. Sleep well and pleasant dreams.
