The ending which precedes the beginning.

Isn’t that kind of the big bang theory in one sentence? Okay, not really. I just looked it up. But that sentence just sounded so cool in my head and that it was the perfect thing to say following the title of this post. 

A lot of things only make sense in my head. And sometimes I think something so loud I swear I’ve either actually said it or that it was possible that someone could hear it if they were really listening.

Well, today was the last day at a job that I thought was going to be great but wound up being a personal nightmare. Torture, actually. Sometimes. (Often times.) Talk about being a bad “fit”. But now it’s onto bigger and better things!

I realize that it’s all about learning and the gathering of experiences (both personal and professional). So, in that sense, the job had it’s value. And I certainly enjoyed all of the members of my entire team. Each and every one brought something special and unique to my world. For that, I will always be grateful. I only hope that I gave back in ways that were as meaningful.

Okay, so what did I really learn? That I won’t “bend over” for anyone, I don’t care if you are the president. I have this “thing” about wanting fair and equal treatment for everyone, for colleagues to be appreciated, recognized and valued (as well as for myself). And when that doesn’t happen, I stand up. For everyone. I think I get that characteristic from my dad and from my dad’s dad. [Yes, that would be my grandfather. I don’t know why I didn’t just write that. I guess it was a literary thing. Or that thing in my head again about it sounding good.) Anyway, I have always said (dating back to my teenage years) that I won’t respect someone just because of their “position”. But add in behavior that disrespects, a personality that is conceited and an over inflated ego and I am really going to have a problem. Bear in mind, however, that my disdain for this kind of authority figure in no way effects my dedication and commitment to generating the best work product or my desire to be the best employee/colleague I possibly can. I want to succeed no matter what, especially when it becomes a battle of wills. I definitely feel victorious in this situation as I came out on top, left on my own terms, at a high point in my tenure with numerous, measurable accomplishments. But nothing meant more than when colleagues came into my office and said, “I’m going to miss you,” “I’m going to miss your smile,” and “What are we going to do without you?” That is all that truly matters… that I made a difference in people’s lives.

And so, it was a good day, a good run. I can put my head on the pillow tonight knowing I did the best I can and that I am even better prepared for the new opportunity which begins in 10 days.